{ebb and flow}

Yesterday was a weird-ish day. Life at the day job continues to beat, but there is hardly any proofreading work and it makes me sad. I made it through the day, came home to start dinner and soon found out Zack wouldn’t be home until later. “Later” turned out to be 8:30. Dinner tasted horrible (warming it in the oven was a fail) and I was really disappointed. My assistant is off this week so after dinner I sewed a few Gussy items, then I packaged 12 orders… Something I haven’t done in over a month. Hah!

I’m very much looking forward to next Friday. Ahhh. I can smell it now :] Everyone keeps asking me, What are you going to do Monday morning {May 17}? and I keep thinking to myself, Why is everyone asking me this?! I’m going to sew. It’s like when I was younger and everyone kept asking me, Maggie, how old are you? And finally I asked my mom why everyone keeps asking me that — why doesn’t anyone know how old I am?

{As a sidenote, I wish there were years of my childhood on videotape. Like every hour of my life for a few years, taped. I can only imagine the little child my parents said I was: A little girl who loved her purse, chap stick and puppy dog stuffed animal. Blonde sidewinders, white Keds, and a little sassy look that found itself on my face every so often.}

Silly people, Gussy is going to sew, talk, and of course talk some more come May 17 {talk as in write blog posts, of course}.

I put my feet up a little bit tonight {when they weren’t up against the wall} and thought of some ideas. My goodness… I just can’t really comprehend what this means… so I feel like it’s hard to prepare? Yes, that is definitely how I feel.

How am I supposed to prepare for something that only God knew would happen?

That’s what I keep thinking to myself…

Then I think:

Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart, Psalm 37:4

I did and I do, so I think that’s why I’m laying low for now.

I was in the car recently, looked out the window and saw this {above}. CRAZEEEE. When did we move to Minneapolis? Oh, right. We moved here in one weekend last August. Craziest weekend of my life, if I may say so. But! {There is always a but, right?!} Moving here has always been a part of God’s plan, and like I mentioned above, God has always known this plan. So we must have faith. We do have faith. And some times that faith is a very big security blanket for me. I really miss our families. Like tears-in-the-eyes miss our families. But thinking about that too much isn’t healthy. I must focus on the new opportunities this state brings us, like having our families visit us, how we totally live the downtown city life, how moving here has allowed me to 100% concentrate on Gussy, etc.


And so I remember: this is all God’s plan, so this is good.

See, I told you yesterday was weird. Lots of contrasting thoughts, an ebb and flow of happiness and heartache. Of really exciting events yet also living for today.

What is on your mind today? I’d love if you shared…


Comments

  1. 1

    says

    What has been on my mind? Loss. This week we lost one of our family dogs. My husband had her, a black lab, since before we were dating. She was almost 10 and developed liver issues. In just a week, she was sooo sick. So we are now explaining it to our 2 and 3 year old. Then last night a Michigan, Tigers Baseball legend, Ernie Harwell died. As a long-time Michigander, he is part of many of my memories of my great grandfather and Tigers in general. I think his death the day after our dog, has been an awful lot. But we are also looking eagerly toward August when our third child will arrive and spring and how important it is that the Lord’s mercies are new every morning.

    • 2

      Devin Pringle says

      Yeah, I know the feeling. It has just been one of those months. My close friend was shot and murdered last month, with no leads on a suspect, and to top it all off, the gloomy weather doesn’t help in trying to cope. I guess we’ll count on time to bring sunny days and optimism right?

  2. 3

    says

    Great post! Praying for you as you step out in this new adventure.

    I started to write you the crazy that is my mind & it got horrendously long. Suffice to say life is full right now. :)

  3. 5

    says

    What’s on my mind? how thankful I am for that reminder: This is all God’s plan, so this is good. It’s a tough thing to remember sometimes + I just always want to be right there in the sweet spot of his plan.

    SOOOOO excited for you – can’t wait to keep hearing more about the wild ride He’s taking you on!

  4. 6

    says

    oh Gussy-I love this post. I am trying really hard to have faith…thank you so much for the reminder. Still struggling with this J-O-B that I have. It was a passion of mine-working with students and for students and now there is something not right. I know what it is…I think…but God is taking his time to show me the way. Sometimes I wish I could just yell upstairs, “SPEED IT UP OLD MAN! TIMES AWASTIN’!” But that’s my impatience that he has been trying to teach me to let go of for years….

    *sigh*

    {hugs}, gina

  5. 7

    says

    So proud of you Maggie! Keep that great attitude and don’t let anybody stop ya! One step at a time. You are doing great my friend = )

  6. 8

    says

    Sorry you had a down day but we all need one once in awhile to make us appreciate the better ones and to take a moment to evaluate our lives. Tomorrow will be a good day.

    I really with I was in your position right now. Think about all the extra time you’re going to get to spend with the hubs ’cause now you can sew when he’s gone and you can have more time together in the evenings. No more wasted time commuting either. Pretty awesome! That’s my main downer right now – not having time to get everything done and still be able to have fun.

  7. 10

    says

    i always feel weird when bloggers ask what’s going on in MY life. i feel like i could write a novel right now, but sometimes i wonder if they actually read what we (I) write. my kids have been a bit of a handful lately… for many reason. but i try to count my blessings in that they really are GOOD kids. and i love spending time with them. since i’m a working mom i try to appreciate every moment with them. but when things happen that cause me to get frustrated, I feel like screaming. I wish I could be the perfect mom, but I know that can never happen.

    I have been trying really hard to rely on God to give me patience and an over abundance of love for them. work is busy so i feel like I have to do more stuff for work which takes away from my time at home.

    ……. you asked…… i answered.

    • 11

      says

      I always!!!!!!!! read my comments. And I always care. And don’t even try to be the perfect mom, because you will only let yourself down. We aren’t perfect and that is the beauty of life. We are “allowed” to make mistakes and we’re still loved. Mistakes are how you learn :]

      When things get tough I like to make little goals, tangible goals, that help me to see how I can get through it. And just remember all you have to focus on is today.

      • 12

        says

        thanks for your reply Maggie. It’s funny b/c somedays I tell myself how bad I want a third child. then other days, I’m like “Who let me me a mom in the first place? I’m horrible at this!!”
        i like the idea of daily tangible goals. i know when I do stuff like that, I always feel more productive. Thanks again for your comment.

  8. 13

    says

    I think I feel like there’s so much I want to do, so much I need to do, and only so much of any of it ever gets done.
    I’m a stay at home mom and have “lots of time” to do stuff according to many, but somehow my days get swallowed up.
    I live in the balance somewhere.
    Looking towards the future of when I’ll have more ME time and yet revel in the specialness of my time with my kids.
    Sometimes I think I’m not able to achieve the Proverbs 31 woman and other days I totally rock it. I think I need to focus on more God time and then the me time and the them time will fall into the places He wants it to be.
    thanks for this post.
    Made me think.
    Outside the box.

  9. 14

    says

    Dueteronomy 32:4
    He is the Rock, his works are perfect,
    and all his ways are just.
    A faithful God who does no wrong,
    upright and just is he.

    Thought this was juuuuust right for you today!

  10. 15

    says

    This week I’ve found myself a little too consumed with anxiety. It’s part of my nature, unfortunately, and even though I know that it is irrational and downright WRONG to worry so much when I am so blessed, I still do.

    This is a challenge I find with working at home – I’m lucky enough to have those few hours of alone time to get work done, but sometimes being alone can also get lonely, and that’s when the fretting starts. The good news is that if I just step away from the sewing machine and take a walk or call a friend, even go to the grocery store, I feel 1000% better. Sometimes I have to force myself to do it, but it’s so very necessary. And the bonus is that I always feel more focused when I get back to work. So …

    {assumes mom voice }
    Once you are a full-time Gussy, be sure you still make a little time each day for Maggie.
    {/momvoice*}

    :)

  11. 16

    says

    What a great post…I have been having that kind of week I feel like or few days…it all started with my sewing space…if you read my blog today, you will see why. I don’t have a ‘space’ that I like and it is really bothering me. I have a few ideas, but I just have to make it work for me in our cute house that I love.

    I think that when a big change comes in our life, we feel this way…I remember that same bitter-sweet feeling when I felt my job to stay at home with the girls…it was a dream come true, but what if I didn’t like it, what if we could not pay our bills with one income, all of the ‘what if’s’, but it is all part of the plan and makes us better people.

    Hope you are having a great day!

  12. 17

    says

    Amen and amen, sistah.

    What’s on my mind…. I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how I don’t like that I try to control my life. The more I try not to control, the more controlling I become. [if that makes any sense...] It’s so silly to even think that I’m in control in the first place. Or that I would even want to be in control when God absolutely knows best. My heart says let go, but my flesh says no thanks. Something I’ve been working on… Thank goodness it’s actually God doing the work! :)

    Also thinking about the fact that we only have 9 1/2 days of school left till this teacher gets a summer break!! Wahoooo.

    I loveloveLOVED reading this post. Great reminder of God’s blessings!! God indeed is so good.

  13. 20

    says

    Love this post! — I love hearing about what is going on in your life. My life is a whirlwind of to-do lists that seem unconquerable. At this point, I haven’t admitted this to anyone, maybe not even myself, but I am overwhelmed. I think I feel a blog post coming on. Put it on my to-do list. *sigh.

    I also love this post because I think, *I think*, see in that picture? That bag of packaged goodies? Mine is in there. :) It is on it’s way to my MIL in Houston. And on May 21st it will be in my hot little hands. Can’t wait. Thanks! :)

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